Hmmmmmm I created a new journal, but it's mostly private so only certain people will get to see it.  Consider it a big friends cleanup.  You'll get word.

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Well, no go with ice cream
looks like I'm going to fuck this whole job thing and dye my hair



honestly, I don't care anymore
I'm going to get a job in college and work my ass of there
when I need to
vacations are vacations for a reason

in the meantime I'm going to cherish the freedom of haircolor.

so shove it, all you stuck up snobs (you know who you are, mister!)
I'm not stopping
not even for you! 
:P

well, I'm going to the ice cream shop in a little bit
to ask about a job
and about my hair
the second this guy says yes
to both the job and the hair
it's gunna be bluer than the sky

oh wait
oh wait
now it's about being a trendy city girl like jewels

where do people get this stuff?

being hired at Wawa is looking slim
the one on maple said no
the one near bill's house said no, pretty much

Honestly, I don't want to work at Wawa
I know that sounds stupid and juvenille or whatever
but I would rather work an ideal job rather than sit and fucking make sandwiches all day, really.

*sorry*  Maybe I'm not cut out for the adult world after all.
I just want to work in PHILLY!  THAT'S ALL!

I really hope
and pray
that I did well enough on my english exam to pass for the year

mom calls a little bit ago.
says, "You don't have to be angry anymore, I've got the money."
Completely missing the reason I was angry.
I told her it was a dick move and before I had a chance to tell her why she hung up.

Stop acting like you're 16 when I'm telling you the truth about your asshole behavior.  You're 41.  Deal.

So I'm at home for a little bit after getting lunch with Seth and Ben, and I'm sitting at the table looking at some forms I've got to fill out for Ferrum.  I remember that I have to make my deposit soon.

"Where am I going to get $200 from?"  I ask.  Mom sat in silence.  She was absorbed in something at her lappy.
Then I remember that I have that $300 from the Music Appreciation Club that Ms. Rulo presented me with about a month ago.
"The $300!  We could use that," I say.
"I already put it in the bank," mom says.
"You can make the payment online."
"No, I mean it's not there."
I feel this overcast feeling of peril start to come over me.
"Where did it go?"
"For bills," she says, matter-of-factly.
A moment of silence.
"That was my money," I say.  I'm cutting flash cards for my English vocab, and I'm wishing more than anything to go over there and cut off her fingers.
"Well, if you want a reason to be pissed off, all of Dad's bonds that he collected are gone too."

I left.

My mom took all the money I had to pay the bills.  That was my money for college. 
What am I going to do now?  Where am I going to find $200?  What if I don't find it in time?
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
I CANNOT AFFORD THIS BULLSHIT RIGHT NOW
and I don't even start working for Wawa for another couple of weeks
there's no way I'll have it by the end of the month

fuck you, mom



I can't wait to get the fuck out of here

today is Chem and Russian.

:/  my confidence is slipping..

Tila Tequila.  XD  That's all.


Soon I'm coming up on my 1000th LJ entry for ilovetangerines.  !!!